Sad case... yesterday just break up with my girlfriend.. actually i don't blame her as i acknowledge that i am really not a good bf... The way that i treat her good is only double her sadness.. I feel so sad when i hear that and immediately i burst into tears... actually we are not compatible, our interest, even our personality,... is different.
We always quarrel and there are also alot alot of misunderstanding between us resulting us to separate from each other. i am just like a wooden cock head that don understand how she feels. Family problem have already pressurized her to suffocating and yet my concern to her is not what she wish for and only double her burden.. she scream in the orchard mrt so loud that awaken the selfishness of me keeping her by my side neglecting her feeling. I try my best to treat her as nice as possible but the result is still the same. I don understand why everytime i give in to her or even my past relationships they always wanted more. where else when guys treat them bad they like it more. WTH!!! haiz..she is a type of woman that need people to initiative understand her.
I told her that I am really sorry that i made her suffer for 9 months and the time we spent only bring her sadness memories. Now we are friends and i really hope that she can live better without me.. For myself, trying to do some reflection and not to go another relation until i have save at least 20k in my bank.
