Wishing for a bottle of medicine that can really forget my memories.. I have too much bad memories that i wish to forget.. I seriously need one.. hope the medicine can be invented soon and i am willing to be the first one to test it...haha, I really hope i am a person that can forget things easily.. cos my mind is full of sad memories and my heart is full of scar.. Time is the best healing medicine?
Haiz.. sch is reopening soon, hoping can keep me more busy... Now i am trying to change my mind and soul to a different person but eventually i think is useless for me.. cos the sad memories is still in my... I hate memories... it won just disappear or vanish just like you wan it to be haha.. but i think singing is the only solution that i can put all things aside..
Recently just recieve the msg from a agent company, asking me to prepare for the photo shoot on wed.. but still not confrom yet haha.. Recently, i am finding things to keep myself busy all the time.. this is to stop mi from thinking the past.. but i think is pointless.. haha.. just hope everything will be alright for me..
i was thinking to go travel myself maybe thailand or maybe other places just to get off this "shang sin di" for a moment.. friends are all busy or maybe they don feel like going travel?.. so i think is easier for mi to go alone..
Today is the last time i go clubing... you know why i wanna go clubbing? Becos is noisy it really helps me in puting my mind to rest.. but i always don want people to know what i am thinking so i just tell them i wanna go grind gals.. haha..
i just don know why i am so compLICATED!! when i am still in primary sch, i already behaving like these.. making up story to prevent others from knowing my mind or even my heart.. just don know when i can feel comfortable to open up.. I have already live for 21 years.. maybe ppl say i am still young but i think my heart is older than mi, all the memories bringing me older...
just wish i can settle down faster.. with slience.. in sleep.. Next time if i got the chance to live again, i wanna to be a computer so people can easily delete my memories...
